Re: Lucifer Fell
Posted: Sun Sep 23, 2018 7:18 am
Ami's response was... Not what Ruby had hoped for, to say the least.
She was genuinely shocked by the venomous tone of voice that Ami had taken. All this time she had assumed that Ami just didn't wait for her return, and that the moment they found each other again it would be a heartfelt reunion. Not a cheerful one, but given that they had watched out for each other since day one, Ruby assumed she would be happy to see her.
It wasn't until now that she realised just how furious Ami was with her. How betrayed she must have felt when she didn't return as promised. Or for going away at all in the first place, even if was only intended to be briefly. And given Ruby's defensive nature, it was very hard for her to not respond with similar venom.
"I... Did NOT... Ditch you. Why would I ditch the one person left on this island I actually trust?"
She paused, trying to internally calm herself down. Getting angry at Ami would not make things any better, especially when Ami had very good reasons for being angry.
"I... I don't know what else to say here. I tried to keep us all safe by making sure Sean couldn't hurt us. I hesitated, I fucked up and things then got out of hand. Then I just needed a minute to myself to wrap my head around all this before Sean came along and shoved me over the side of the fucking boat. That's exactly what happened. It was a mistake, a stupid mistake, and you fully deserve to hate my guts for it. But I never intended to ditch you, I swear to god."
Was any of this going to make a difference? She knew that she was repeating herself. She realised that there was probably no way she could convince Ami to ever forgive her, not after essentially abandoning her at her most emotionally fragile moment. But she still tried, knowing full well that she probably wouldn't get another chance.
"All I'm trying to say is... I'm sorry. I'm sorry about how this all panned out. I screwed up."
After all, without Ami, Ruby truly would be alone.
"Just... Just give me a chance to make up for all this. That's all I'm asking."
She was genuinely shocked by the venomous tone of voice that Ami had taken. All this time she had assumed that Ami just didn't wait for her return, and that the moment they found each other again it would be a heartfelt reunion. Not a cheerful one, but given that they had watched out for each other since day one, Ruby assumed she would be happy to see her.
It wasn't until now that she realised just how furious Ami was with her. How betrayed she must have felt when she didn't return as promised. Or for going away at all in the first place, even if was only intended to be briefly. And given Ruby's defensive nature, it was very hard for her to not respond with similar venom.
"I... Did NOT... Ditch you. Why would I ditch the one person left on this island I actually trust?"
She paused, trying to internally calm herself down. Getting angry at Ami would not make things any better, especially when Ami had very good reasons for being angry.
"I... I don't know what else to say here. I tried to keep us all safe by making sure Sean couldn't hurt us. I hesitated, I fucked up and things then got out of hand. Then I just needed a minute to myself to wrap my head around all this before Sean came along and shoved me over the side of the fucking boat. That's exactly what happened. It was a mistake, a stupid mistake, and you fully deserve to hate my guts for it. But I never intended to ditch you, I swear to god."
Was any of this going to make a difference? She knew that she was repeating herself. She realised that there was probably no way she could convince Ami to ever forgive her, not after essentially abandoning her at her most emotionally fragile moment. But she still tried, knowing full well that she probably wouldn't get another chance.
"All I'm trying to say is... I'm sorry. I'm sorry about how this all panned out. I screwed up."
After all, without Ami, Ruby truly would be alone.
"Just... Just give me a chance to make up for all this. That's all I'm asking."