If Life Never Hurt

[Mitsuko2†]

It all came rushing back to her at that instant. It hurt.... Life, what a horrid ideal. The songs of the siren rung in her ears as she approached the table, as if she was in a trance. There it was; the end to everything. It could all be done with if she wanted it to. She could finish everything. She was in control. Everything was going to end now. She felt a tear run down her tan cheeks and took another step towards the table. She felt a shiver run down her spine. It was all or nothing.

No one would be able to look at her anymore She wouldn't have to pretend to care about it. She didn't have to look at them all secretly sneering at her. She knew they all did. She knew they all hated her. She knew... None of them were real.... She took another step. She was within arm's reach of the item. All that was left to do was to pick it up. She had no choice. She had to... She couldn't let them win...

Her frail hand grasped the handle of the item carefully, as if it was so fragile it could break in her hand. She moved her aqua eyes up and down the item, carefully scrutinizing it. She knew this was the way out. It could all end now. She relished the idea. Her button down shirt slipped off her shoulders, and off of her arms, landing in a pool around her feet. She brought the item to the opposite wrist. She felt the cool steel against her skin.

'Yes.... This is it.' She thought and placed the blade of the knife against her wrist. She pressed down and let out a gasp. A small trickle of blood began to slide down her arm. She followed through though. She slashed through the length of her arm and let out a scream as blood spilled from her wrist. She felt a multitude of tears run down her face, but she couldn't quit now. She placed the knife a bit higher on her arm this time and slashed again. She screamed again. The pain was increased tenfold. The was a loud banging on her locked door.

"Serenity?! Are you alright?! Why is your door locked?! Serenity! Open the door!" Her mother screamed.

"GO AWAY! Leave me alone!" Serenity yelled back. She slashed her arm again and another pained yell pushed past her lips. She tried to keep from screaming and bit down hard on her bottom lip, splitting it open, causing her to taste her own blood. Suddenly there was a smash on her door. Then another. And another. She dropped the knife to the floor and cradled her bloodied arm.

Her blood was everywhere. It was on the floor. On her torso. On her pants. She sank to her knees and cried. The blood spilling every which way. Her door flew open with a resounding crack and both her parents and her Maid Rhea ran in. The three surrounded her. Rhea tore off her Apron and attempted to halt the bleeding. Her father grabbed the phone and called 911. Her mother held her tightly, telling her everything was going to be okay.

Yet... Serenity knew nothing would be alright.